So busy.

How am I supposed to talk about life and children with disabilities when I am so darn busy???  These are the random thoughts that are flying through my head tonight:

Jeff is interviewing for several jobs.  I have my favorite; the place I really want to be.  I'm nervous about where we'll be living in a year.  At the end of the day, I just want to be where my husband is and where God puts us...but I still have a fav.

I'm not worried about the process of moving and settling in.  It will be hard.  There is absolutely not doubt about that.  It's going to be a difficult year.  We will be living in separate cities for a year as Hannah finishes high school.  I don't want to be apart as a family, but it will be necessary. 

Emily is getting a Canine Companion for Independence dog.  We check in for two weeks of training May 2, 2010.  It is an AWESOME thing for her.  She is so excited.  This dog will be her friend for life.  Her dog comes from an amazing program, we can't wait to meet this new friend of hers.  The timing is killing me.  Jeff could have to be in his new city while we are gone.  The last precious week of being together will be gone.  We all just have to do what we have to do, but how I sometimes wish I had a life that didn't quite tilt on its axis so much. 

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My mother in law is coming to stay with Abby while we are at team training, who knows where Jeff will be?  Who will take Hannah to school?    Can Sarah go to band and chorus?  Can someone else really come in and run my life for me for two whole weeks?  I sure hope so. 

Hannah's prom is Saturday, I just bought her dress today--dress, shoes, earrings, in one quick loop.  I feel guilty about being so last minute, but I really did not have time before today.  She does love her dress, and she looked beautiful, I am so blessed. 

I am speaking at my church Monday night.  I have no idea about how to do this.  I am trying to decide if it's what God is leading me to do, but I'm a little panicky.  What if I completely mess up and no one wants to know the God that lets THAT girl talk?   It sounds nuts, but that's how I feel. 

Jeff and I went to a marriage conference at church last weekend.  That was a good thing.  As much as I am going to miss him when he's gone, it's not easy having him here all the time.  He loves his job, he loves us, he just doesn't love it when he doesn't have both in his life at once.  I used to say that his office was his mistress.  It's who he leaves me for, he always takes her calls, runs when she [the radio station] needs him.  He misses her.  As I'm re-reading that it sounds more sordid than it is, but I'm leaving it in.

We have a complicated, busy family.  I am so glad we have someone greater than us to work out all of these details.  My radom thoughts are probably just make Him shake his head.  He sees the beginning from the end and has known all along how it all fits together.  I can' t wait to watch :)