My sweets heart

2 years ago today, I packed Abby up for school the last time. Of course, I wouldn't have known she would never go again, but I clearly remember putting the plastic sandwich baggy with Abby-signed valentines in her backpack. A few days later, I would take her to the hospital where she stayed for 5 weeks.

Abby in the hospital lobby before her surgery.

The rest, is history.

Yesterday, I had a hard day.  I thought of Abby all day, and it took me a while to connect the dots.  I missed my sweetheart. 

Today, I spoke about how much God loves us.  I've spent much of today thinking of the many times in my life that love didn't make sense.  I thought of the days when I wanted so much more than I seemed to find.  I thought of the hurts and heartaches, but also the days that were joyful and hopeful.  I think the days of knowing how blessed I am are far greater than the hurts. 

I love this song!  It's been on my mind all day today. 

The pain of this life is going to come whether one believes in God or not.  There is peace and comfort that comes with knowing that God is good all the time, even when I don't understand.   His truth and His word stand, and when I fall, it picks me up again.

When the healing didn't come in the way I hoped it would, God is still love.  When relationships disappoint, He is perfect love.  When hearts break, He is healing love.  When it all falls apart, He is restoring love.  When I am at the end of me, He is enduring love. When death comes to a human frame, He is eternal love. 

As much as I loved Abby, I still can not love her the way He does.  I know that I can trust Him with my Sweet's heart.