Super quick update

Abby's blood cultures were positive. No surprise, given how she looks, but still not what we wanted to hear. She's growing gram positive rods, not sure what species yet. She's still very tired and her color is plain ole icky.

This was a loooonnnng day filled with hard conversations. What we know is that we will try to get Abby feeling a little better. Even though they would like to pull the line, we're not going to do that. They can treat her and it, but that's all. I can't even say how deeply my heart breaks with thoughts of stopping treatment. I honestly don't know how anyone does this.

Jeff tells me that we will know. We knew it was the right decision to bring her to the hospital. We will know what to do next. We have prayed over this child for 14 years. God loves her, and He is with her.

My mother in law read a story about a woman losing her husband. She said that she made one decision that felt right, and then when it was time for the next, she did what felt right again. And again. Until there were no more. I pray each day that we are able to do that.

Hopefully, tonight we will get some sleep, and tomorrow we may be able to go home on IV antibiotics. We are still praying that we are able to have some quality time with our girl, knowing that as we trusted God with the timing, it may not be what we hoped for. Doors are quietly closing all around us.