Scary

Sweet Abby Grace has not had a good day.  Her fever won't stay down.  She looks worse than I've ever seen her look.  She simply has no color.  She's so pale that when she falls asleep, Jeff and I have to make sure she's still breathing. 

Her color is freaking me out!

We are home with her for now.  Her blood work didn't look bad which is so weird.  Her blood work is off every week when she usually looks okay.  Now, most things look normal, but she looks awful.  Her fever breaks for a bit, but goes right back up.  Her O2 sats are good, which is good.  Her heart rate was up pretty high, but that's not too abnormal considering her temperature.  She hasn't tolerated feedings for the last 24 hours. They gave her extra IV fluids in the ER.  

They let us bring her home and for the first time in my life, I was scared to take her.  I cried leaving the hospital.  I know they're right.  They weren't going to do anything for her there that we aren't doing here.  Control the fever and run IV fluids.  Her Dr. didn't want to start antibiotics until he sees the blood cultures.  He's not convinced it was a contaminant two weeks ago.  Because this started 10 days after she stopped antibiotics before, it's possible that we just stopped something brewing and didn't actually kill it.  We are just not sure.  If she has a blood infection, I can't imagine her white count being normal.  If she has a virus, it's awful. 

Jeff has decided to stay an extra day because Abby looks so scary to us.  It's awful being so afraid for her.  It was one thing to not want to be in the hospital and deal with that.  It's another thing entirely to be so worried about her.  We just wonder how much her little body can take.  

I'm praying tomorrow comes with answers and Abby does well through the night.


***Fever's up to 103.9, giving motrin and really praying she's alright tonight***